Thursday, May 20, 2004

Getting old.

You know you're getting old when you don't get invited to "lads" parties anymore.

I'm 34 tomorrow - whoosh - where did my life go. It's a shame we spend most of our lives trying to earn the money just to keep a roof over our heads. I'd love to have the balls to sell up, move abroad and have a much less costly standard of living. I hate uncertainty though. Probably why I never really pursued the IT contracting market. I may give it another cursory glance soon just to see what's up.

After reading Garans Blog I have to agree with him. Is this all we have to look forward to for the rest of our working lives. It has it's plus points and yes I do still enjoy working with computers but it can be so stressful sometimes. There has to be another option. I'd be happy to earn a lower salary if our cost of living was lower too.

It's definitely time to stop spending money just because we can and start saving it up. It's nice to be able to enjoy it here and now but with some savings under our belt we'd be in a much more commanding position with regards to the direction we want to take.

I'm not suggesting we go to the other extreme but with some careful budgeting I think we could soon tuck £400-£500 a month into savings. At that rate it won't be long before it mounts up and we can move or extend the house, or even sell up and get the hell out of here.

My mate Lee is doing just that at the end of the year and moving out to Thailand to work as an English (or should that be Engrish) teacher. I have to say I'm a little jealous but good on him. He has no ties here so it's a lot easier. I guess all you need is the right level of motivation and confidence in yourself.

My biggest problem is fear of failure and then not being able to provide for Katie and the girls. I've gone through my last few years in IT thinking this can't be right. How can I possibly earn this much money doing what I do and then worrying that sooner or later I'd be found out.

Well that hasn't happened and I'm obviously good at what I do or I wouldn't have got the promotion to CTO last year. I wouldn't have got this job at all if I hadn't succeeded in my previous jobs.

Writing this it seems as though my biggest issue is confidence in myself and my abilities. Fear of the unknown comes into it too.

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